Be sure to stop by Iris‘ site, the host of Thankful Thursday, to be blessed by a collection of Thankful posts.
It has been a while since I’ve done a Thankful Thursday post, but I felt called to do one today. I started writing this post first thing this morning, but it’s taken me all day to get it out.
I am angry with God. There, I said it. I’ve given him a piece of my mind with a few choice words lately. I have been angry with him for taking my grandmother, and before I even had a chance to grieve her loss, he took my aunt.
I know they are both dancing in heaven at the foot of the King. I am comforted that they were both His faithful servants. But I wasn’t ready to let either of them go. I momentarily forget they are gone. I’ll see something, or hear the boys say something, and I think, “Granny would love to know about that.” Then I remember, she’s gone. And, I get mad at Him all over again.
Even though I get angry, I’m thankful He welcomes me with open arms, that he’ll accept my return. I’m thankful that He will let me lay my head in his lap, cry my tears, and love me just the same.
I am thankful that He allowed me to find this index card. It has become a treasure I look at daily to remember how much He loves me. (Click here if you missed my story about this card.)
Go on over and visit Iris at Sting My Heart. You, too, can be blessed by those giving thanks.
I am worried about all of my Texas friends. You are all in my prayers.
Sorry for your loss. But glad to know you are taking comfort from God. God bless.
Welcome back to thankful thursday sweetie. So very sorry for the loss of your grandmother and aunt. I understand your pain, and mixed emotions. I lost my momma in 2006, and then my big brother in June of this year. It really hurts, I miss them everyday. But, they are dancing with their King as you so beautifully said. I will pray for you.
I think God expects us to get angry with Him. Our own children get angry with us. The main thing is to realize that He loves us and takes care of us. Which I know you do realize all that.
He knew you were angry and I think He allowed you to find the index card to help you.
You are probably surprised I’m blogging, huh? I am bored! All this waiting for Ike is driving me crazy. We are as prepared as well as we can be. Now we are hunkered down and just.waiting. Bah!
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